My formula for happiness: a Yes, a No, a straight line, a goal.

I haven’t updated this in a long time though I am sure no one has noticed…. lol.

I am doing a meet tomorrow in Los Altos May 22, then for the summer not training for ANYTHING. Its going to be great, I get to pick a few fun things to get better at that DON’T include Snatching!! I am going to get my Back Squat and Push Press up. I need handle Back Squatting 315lbs like a motherfucker and I want to Push Press 185 lbs. I am also gonna do KettleBells and jumping plyos for conditioning so that by the end of the summer I am lean mean 135 lbs! I have worked VERY hard to be 143-5 ish lbs and will do my normal upper body assistance work to keep building muscle b/c I NEVER want to have a skinny upper body. GROSS. But I want to lose about 5-7 lbs of body fat, then I could kick ass as a 63 kg lifter. I don't feel like my "extra" fat is helping me. I know I am going to get made fun of for saying that, but if you are a girl, don't even pretend that you don't understand!! I can't wait to get jacked! It’s going to be the fun summer I have never had. Minus working my job all the time, oh yeah.

I have been planning this "fun time" for a while. months in fact. I have a detailed routine of my fun lifting plan. It is actually kinda insane and not what most people would think of as fun.  Nietzsche is my favorite philosopher and I feel that his ideas fit really well with my own world view and my thoughts and feelings on sports and my sport. One of the things he wrote, in Twilight of the Idols, was 

"My formula for happiness: a Yes, a No, a straight line, a goal."

For me Happiness is having a goal to work towards, thats why even my off time/off season is planned and goal oriented. The fastest way to reach what you desire is a clear shot, a straight line. 

A YES, A NO. A lot of times I have to say NO to certain things and activities. Like going out with friends, sleeping in for fun, lounging around and generally "relaxing" (relaxing that is not counted as "Recovery" time) But I do not feel like I am missing out, really. well sometimes I do, but that is a fleeting feeling. When it comes down the wire, I would be happy dying knowing that I gave myself 100% to my goals and aspirations, AND WAS TRUE TO MYSELF. But I would say YES to having a family in a second and NO to training hard (at least for a year, hahah) 

*49% Motherfucker. 51% Son of a Bitch*

I am a huge Motorhead fan and obviously the documentary on Lemmy Kilmister had me frothing at the mouth in anticipation.  Oddly, I learned so much about MYSELF from the film, not just the fucking amazing badassness that is LEMMY. Various interviewers asked him throughout the film how it felt to still be creating, recording music and touring at 63 years old. Being a man of few words, but all the right ones, he simply says something along the lines of “I’m not qualified to do anything else, really.” The drummer says “They said motorhead was the worst band in the world, well the kids are showing up to see the worst band in the world!”

Motorhead has released 25 albums. There is no end. In the beginning they did not have an endpoint. I love that Lemmy keeps doing what he loves. He lives in a little 1 bedroom off the sunset strip and pays $900 a month and won't move because it's rent controlled and right by The Rainbow Bar and Grill. He says he doesn’t need more. 

He can do what he loves, that’s all that matters. 

That’s beautiful to me. 

Respect. 

With weightlifting or any sport, or even just working out to be in better shape/stronger, there is no endpoint either. Someone I know wrote this:

"The destination truly never comes. The closer you get, the further away it moves."

You have to enjoy the journey, enjoy the struggle, enjoy the pain! Not just enjoy the pain: LOVE the pain! To create your destiny you must be in control of the journey, knowing where to turn your sail. In every endeavor in life you are progressing or regressing. There is NO middle ground, stagnation means regression... Basically if you are not pushing to get better you are moving backwards, getting worse. THE DESTINATION NEVER COMES.

so enjoy the sweat pouring off you know and always give 100% in whatever you do! 

Just like my hero, Lemmy Kilmister! *49% Motherfucker. 51% Son of a Bitch*